Jez (flatmate, just returned from two weeks in the middle east) is downstairs with a group of people for a church group thingy. It seems to involve pizza. Anyway, I have been relegated to my bedroom, and I am quite shocked to find out exactly how much of a loose end I find myself at without a TV to watch.
A couple of years ago, I barely watched TV. There was so much more to do in life – I’d be out most evenings in the week doing something or other, and if I was in the house, I’d always have a programming project on the go, or a song to write, or something like that. Lately, though, I’ve been aware that I’ve coming home and just crashing on the sofa for the evening, tuning out and turning into a mindless blob. Which is crap, frankly.
Okay, it’s fair enough if there’s something worth watching on TV, but how often does that happen? It’s not like I don’t have enough to do. I’ve still got I Don’t Get It to sort out (I did a couple of days work on the backend a month or so ago, and it’s sort of stagnated since then, rather predictably); I’ve got a couple of songs buzzing round in my head I’ve still not even started to arrange yet; hell, even the electric piano I borrowed from Church a couple of weeks back hasn’t seen much use, and I’ve been desperately after a piano for years.
But I just seem to lack motivation. After a day of staring at screenfuls of C++, when I get home I just want to crash; to switch my brain off and not worry about being productive or achieving anything for a few hours. Lack of physical activity in my life at the moment means I’m generally feeling lethargic and low on energy, which serves to sap my motivation further. Hopefully, this should change as the weather gets better and I start windsurfing regularly again, but it’s brought to attention quite how unfit I am these days. I threatened to start going swimming regularly again a few weeks ago, but nothing came of that.
So. A change of some sort is needed. Maybe I really will try and go swimming regularly. Or maybe I’ll set myself a target to have written and arranged a track by the end of the month. Or at the very least just got out of the damn flat for a reason other than going to work.
TV is evil – the bain of our modern lives. It sucks my time away, it rots my brain, it kills conversation…. and still I spend hours in front of it because I simply can’t be bothered to do anything else.
See, I find TV really dull. I find it hard to sit down and watch *anything* through. I get all fidgety.
DVDs on the other hand…
How can you neglect that poor piano?! And ban yourself from watching TV for a month. You’ll feel more motivated because the idiot box won’t be sapping your will to live. (just my opinion, mind)
TV is a great way to shift gears.
Get sky plus. It will forever change the way you watch.
I’m not getting Sky Plus, as I refuse to give Murdoch any more of my money than is absolutely necessary. I may build a PVR box myself some day, though.
I sooo know this feeling. See, I even type like a spacked up luser now! I have no energy, no enthusiasm, no motivation… hey, I considered drinking alcohol at the pub tonight but can’t even be arsed to sort out how I’m going to get there and back if I don’t drive.